Next year I'm the big 3.0! EEEEKKK! I was thinking about planning my party, (a band and cocktails are in the mix) what presents I'd like and all the other distancing but nice things that goes along with surviving another year on this little green planet.
As its my 30th I thought I might get myself something special, maybe something I've denied myself for years. A classic perfume perhaps? A pair of expensive shoes or a stunning piece of jewellery? Well not quite, I've decided that rather than buying myself a gift I'll make myself a promise. A promise to be kinder to myself! That might sound strange but I've decided to be nicer, less judging and more patient with myself, Happy Birthday me!
In my early 20's I was pretty happy with myself, I was super confident, excited and practically giddy about the fact that I was finally doing what I wanted to do, study film directing at a world renowned film school. When I left university my confidence started leaving me as my well planned out future turned out not to be the one I wanted. I started my jewellery business, I Love Crafty which was one of the best decision of my life but for most of the beginning I was pretty terrified as I was basically starting again from scratch.
As my business has grown and I worked bloodly hard to get it to where it is today my confidence and self-esteem started coming back but what I didn't realise was that it became connected to my business. If I had a bad sales day I would feel crap, my emotions became way too attached to the small picture. Not the key to happiness for sure and when I became a mother in 2013 everything changed again. I didn't really pay much attention to myself, all that mattered was Lux coming home (you can catch up on her birth story here) even though I'd been through a massive, life saving operation I had no time to stop and think.
So I figure 30 is a good time to start being kind to myself and treat myself like a friend. I've started the Radical Self Love E-course which is just amazing and has some really good tips and advice on self confidence. I'm also gong to rethink the way I see exercise. I usually see it as a form of punishment, you can blame my uncaring PE teachers for that! I've started running in the mornings and am planning on running a 5K in October, which as a complete starter I don't think is too bad! I'm seeing it as personal challenge and time for myself. I also plan to have a "me date" once a week, which is basically a long bath with a glass of wine, its the little things! To help remind meow my birthday promise I've created a "I love me" board on pinterest full of wise words and motivational tips on how to help feel better about yourself.
What do you think? Do you think being kinder to myself is a good present or shall I take another look at those expensive shoes? Ha!